It seems like it's been an eternity getting to this point. I'm not even sure where to begin, so I guess the beginning is a good place. We have tried starting a family for 3 almost 4 years now. I have struggled with having regular cycles since before I got married. We tried for a year with no success. I then went to my doctor to see if we could figure out what the problem was. I ended up being put on clomid for six months, which is a fertility drug to help stimulate ovulation. At the end of the six months I still wasn't pregnant. My doctor upped the amount of clomid from 50mg to 100mg and we tried again for 3 more months, still unsuccessful. Long story short I have been on clomid off an on for 3 years, in addition to different tests being ran on me and my husband to try to get to the bottom of it. Needless to say when I ran out of clomid this last time which was in January of 2012, I went to see my doctor and he and I both felt it was time to get a second opinion and see someone different. Which has led me to Dr. Ahlering at the Sher Institute in St. Louis.
All of this has taken a huge toll on me, physically and emotionally. I'm one who has a hard time releasing control over to anyone else including God. I have a huge support system behind me including my family and church family. This is probably one of the hardest things I have had to go through. I have had a hard time understanding and figuring out why it hasn't happened, and why it happens to others who don't want children. Talking with my Mom, pastor and best friend Kendall continuously has helped me put those thoughts at ease. They have helped me realize that God has a plan for me and I have no control over how it happens or when it happens. I've come to the conclusion that we will have a family, whether it's through me or through adoption doesn't matter, what matters is that it will happen and it will happen all in God's timing.
So right now we are pursuing testing with Dr.Ahlering and I am very anxious to see where this takes us.
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