Day 12 Update!

   
   First of all I want to say THANK YOU Lord! Thank you for answering prayers, thank you for never leaving me even when the doubt and that fear kept finding it's way into my mind over the past few weeks. So Praise God, it is because of Him any of this is happening. 

   Second of all, we had our third appointment today. This was another ultrasound to check the growth of my follicles. If you remember on Wednesday I had one follicle on my right side measuring at 12mm. Today I am shocked and pleased to tell you I have two on my right side now, one is measuring at 14mm, the other is measuring at 12.5mm. I also have one follicle trying to catch up that is on my left ovary measuring at 11mm. My prayer this week was that the one would just keep growing, that it would stay put and grow, grow, grow. Never did I imagine that I would have gotten this good of results today. So again, Thank you Lord, Praise Jesus! 
  
   My doctor is keeping me on 150 units of medication for the next three days and I go back in on Tuesday for another check. Here's what we need. I need no more than three follicles to keep growing. IF any more than that decide to join the party we may have to cancel this cycle which would break my heart. So my prayer for the next three days is that the three that are growing will be the only three that keep growing. That when I go in Tuesday I will be ready for my trigger shot and Wednesday we can proceed with the IUI. 

   As I wrap up this post I just want to say how at peace I am with all of this. Yes I may have doubt and fear creep in but it does not stay long. I cry now because all of this, this whole situation feels completely right. I feel God working in all of this. So now I also thank God for Honor and blessing us with her because without her I would not be as strong in my faith. She renewed a hope and trust in us, and me especially that was at risk of being lost and I don't even want to think about where I would be spiritually if she hadn't been born. I miss her so much but at the same time I am now seeing a bigger plan, a plan that she was so much a part of.

   Keep praying!  I will update everyone Tuesday when we know more info! 

Love to you all!
Tom and Whit
   

Day 9 Update!

   Today I had another ultrasound appointment to check how my body was responding to the medication. When Dr. Dayal performed the ultrasound she saw one follicle on my right ovary that was already at 12mm. I was kind of shocked because I usually feel activity at this point but nothing ever really happens until my dose is doubled for about another week. I will be on three more days of medication at the higher dose and I go back in Saturday for another ultrasound. By this time this one follicle should be about ready if not all the way ready so that I can do my trigger shot after that. We still have a way to to go but praise the Lord our prayers are being answered! 

   So now we need prayers that this one follicle will keep growing and not disappear like they have done on me in the past. This all feels really good right now. Just keep praying and I will keep you updated as we get more news! 

   P.S.- Don't forget to keep praying for everyone else who is struggling with their health or other personal issues. We all know someone who needs daily prayers. :) 

Thank you and Love to all! 
Whit and Tom

Day Three...

    I told you all I would keep you updated. If this were happening earlier in the year I would have kept this all to myself. I know people are praying for us, and I've learned it's better to have full support no matter the outcome than to go through it alone. So I will be updating you every appointment, every step of the way so you know what to specifically pray for.  
   
   Thursday, our first day of spring break, was my first appointment to get this whole process going again.  I went in for a baseline ultrasound to make sure I didn't have any cysts on my ovaries.  I have been really anxious and scared and nervous because no I have never had any cysts before but I also had never had any polyps until about two months ago. I knew anything could happen. I also know that God has his had in all of this. I know the outcome of this part of our lives has already been decided so I have prayed every night up until this appointment for God to give me the strength and guidance to fully trust in Him through all of this. At 10:15 we went into the ultrasound room and Dr. Dayal proceeded to check both ovaries and to my complete relief everything looked great. We talked about the dosage of medicine I would be on. Dr. Dayal had said she was going to try to mimic the dosage and time frame from when we got pregnant almost 2 years ago now. I have complete trust in her and pray daily that God will guide her to make decisions on our behalf that are in our best interest. So all that being said, I started my daily injections on Thursday. I will take the meds until Tuesday and go back in Wednesday for another ultrasound/follicle check to see how my eggs are growing and progressing.
   
   I find it interesting after going back and reading my last paragraph, as I'm checking for errors that I said I have complete trust in my Dr. but I find it hard to trust God's plan for me. How crazy town does that sound?!  I have found that letting go and giving it all to God and trusting that His plan is what is best for us has been one of the hardest things I have had to do or try to do. As a human we want to control our lives, we know ourselves best, we know what would be best for us right?! Well we think we do. I know what we want. We want to  get a positive pregnancy test. We want to have a pregnancy go full term. We want to deliver a healthy baby boy or girl. We want to bring that healthy baby into our new home and raise him or her to the best of our abilities. Sometimes I ask myself...God is that really too much to ask. Well, yes, it is, if that's not what is best for us a family,best for us as a husband and wife. I know God knows our  hearts desire is to have another baby and that's what we're praying for. I'm praying that that is His plan for us at this moment in time. I am also praying for understanding on our part if that's not the outcome we get in a couple weeks. 

   So here are a few specific prayer requests I have for us at the moment:
1.First and foremost, I know that we are not the only people going through trials at this moment in time. So please not only pray for Tom and me, but also keep Jason and Holly in your prayers and Kelly Griffin. Both families are battling cancer at this time. They, to me, are showing great strength and trust in God at a time when most would not. 
2. Please pray that no matter what we will lean on God and trust in His plan for us. He always comes first no matter what. All the glory goes to God. Pray that if this does not end up being God's plan for us that our hearts are open and willing to move onto whatever path He has for us.
3. Please pray that my body responds well to the meds and that our ultrasound results are positive on Wednesday.

  I want to thank you for praying for us for so long. I know I said this all the time but your love and support is greatly appreciated. 

   I will let you all know how Wednesday goes! 
   
   Love to all!
Tom and Whit